Dear Diary,

Dear Diary,

It’s been long since I last wrote in your pages… today; I’d like to tell you about how my day has been.

First of all, I’ve woken up at eleven o’clock, after an 11-hour-rest which has made of me a new happy person.  I’m not used to sleep more than six or seven hours you know? So, I’ve woken up at eleven with the intention of seeing a friend of mine at a quarter to twelve, who has 8as always) fallen oversleep and therefore, hasn’t come to the place where we had met.

Anyways, I’ve gone to do these things I had to do in the morning, on my own; and at twelve o’clock I had a two-hour Chemistry class with an ex-student from the school where I am now. (You should know her; I think I’ve talked about her in some other letters I wrote you).

So, I’ve gone to her grandma’s flat, where she delivers her classes, and when lunch time has come, I’ve gone home to eat something and gone back to class; two more hours. Do you understand why I’m always so tired in school? I’m aaaaaaaaaalways having extra classes of Math’s, Chemistry, Biology and History.

After ending my classes at 5pm, I’ve gone shopping with mommy.  I hadn’t been shopping with her for months, so today’s been a bit like a chaos! I’ve bought a pair of jeans, a pair of shoes, a fabulous belt and 5 T-shirts which will lead the way to summer! I’m so excited!

I’ve arrived home at about half past eight or so, and I’ve been doing homework and studying chemistry and stuff for a while. I’m going to have dinner now… I’m starving!

Well dear friend, I don’t think I’ll have time write on your pages until I end up the school year, which is in two weeks time! Time goes by so fast… I’d never say that I’m turning eighteen in a couple of months!

Gotta go, hope you don’t get mad at me for not having made notice of you for a while… you’ve also been in your teenage years, you know where our head is…

Love,

Anna!

I'm quitting smoking!

Ever since I said I would quit smoking, I've been smoking hundreds more cigarrettes. I thought the first of January was miles away until I woke up the thirty first December and I thought: "the day  has come". I was "allowed" to smoke during  New Year's eve but not more, and because I still hadn't the idea of quitting smoking in my head, I think that night was the one I smoked the most of the more or less eight hundred nights I've ever smoked. Why, you'll ask yourself? Well, there's no explanation there. I just thought that if that night was to be the last one I could ever breath in that dark smoke down my lungs; I'd get the most of it.
So, there I was, three days ago, smoking about thirty cigarrettes in about five hours time, seeming to be a chimeney.
Three days after, the third of January, I'm sitting on an uncomfy chair in the Uni's library, willing for a cigarrette. Why did I think this time would be different? What made me think I could quit so easily? Nevertheless, smoking is classified as a soft drug.
On the other hand, I have to say, I promised myself as well as my mum and boyfriend; among other people, that I would quit on the first of this month.
I don't think I'll be able to survive the exams period without having a lightened cigarrette bar between my lower and upper lips, how am I to stay awakened without that every half-hour dosis of nicotine in my blood.
The thing is: why did I choose to achieve such stupid and difficult purpose in 2011? I want a car. I don't know which one, it's not as if I really cared, I just want and NEED a way of moving around on my own, without having to depend on public transport or my mum.
So, girl, this is it. You chose it that way...

Some reflexions while sitting at my desk

What’s life? Is it a pastime? Is it something we can decide whether to live it or not? Or is it just the product of a genetic mix  and we’re condemned to live through it?

Right now, as I’m pressing the tip of my fingers against the keys of the computer, a tear drop’s falling from the corner of my left eye and  as it slides through the cheek and meets the jaw line at the end of the face, finally does an  Olympic-jump into the swimming-pool that’s been made with my tears over my homework underneath. I’m not going to bother to move them; why should I? In the end, they’re just some papers which teachers use in order to have an excuse to fail you.

I can hear some steps downstairs… I can still hear her shouting and closing doors after her as she crosses  the flat. I can still hear the rumors of the neighbors of next door whispering softly and asking one another quietly what was going on next door.

Everything is quiet now. I press my ear against the door and ask myself if it would be safe now to go to the floor below and open the entrance door and get to the elevator without having to  see her, without feeling her whole hand against my cheek again. 

I listen carefully  and I open the door of my room as I make my way to the stairs, when I glimpse  a flash of light and I feel a huge stick hitting my head as I trip and fall down the first four steps. I feel an enormous weight over my ribs making them crash against my lungs, I can hardly breath and I try to get up and run.

This feeling, her hands strangling my throat, my half-opened mouth, my eyes closed so as to avoid the light that was making my eyes cry.

I try not to shout but the feelings inside me are the worst and the darkest I had ever had.

I don’t think that anything is gonna be ever the same. I am not looking her into the eye again. I don’t think I’ll be able to talk to her. I think I’m going upstairs to pick up my things and I’m leaving home…


Definitely, I am.

Love the way you Lie (Part II) Rihanna feat. Eminem

Hey guys!

I've just found out that Rihanna and Eminem have made up a new song!
This song it's similar to the first one, (Love the way you Lie) but in this one, Rihanna has the spotlight, not as the first one, in which Eminem was the main singer.

I'm attaching you the Youtube link so you can have a look at it and  remember to tell me what you think!

LYRYCS:

[Rihanna]
On the first page of our story
the future seemed so bright
then this thing turned out so evil
I don't know why I'm still surprised
even angels have their wicked schemes
and you take that to new extremes
but you'll always be my hero
even though you've lost your mind

[Chorus]
Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
but that's all right because I like the way it hurts
just gonna stand there and hear me cry
but that's all right because I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie
Ohhh, I love the way you lie

[Rihanna] Now there's gravel in our voices
glass is shattered from the fight
in this tug of war, you'll always win
even when I'm right
'cause you feed me fables from your hand
with violent words and empty threats
and it's sick that all these battles
are what keeps me satisfied

[Chorus]
[Rihanna] So maybe I'm a masochist
I try to run but I don't wanna ever leave
til the walls are goin' up
in smoke with all our memories

[Eminem]

This morning, you wake, a sunray hits your face
smeared makeup as we lay in the wake of destruction
hush baby, speak softly, tell me I'll be sorry
that you pushed me into the coffee table last night
so I can push you off me
try and touch me so I can scream at you not to touch me
run out the room and I'll follow you like a lost puppy
baby, without you, I'm nothing, I'm so lost, hug me
then tell me how ugly I am, but that you'll always love me
then after that, shove me, in the aftermath of the
destructive path that we're on, two psychopaths but we
know that no matter how many knives we put in each other's backs
that we'll have each other's backs, 'cause we're that lucky
together, we move mountains, let's not make mountains out of molehills,
you hit me twice, yeah, but who's countin'?
I may have hit you three times, I'm startin' to lose count
but together, we'll live forever, we found the youth fountain
our love is crazy, we're nuts, but I refused counselin'
this house is too huge, if you move out I'll burn all two thousand
square feet of it to the ground, ain't shit you can do about it
with you I'm in my f-ckin' mind, without you, I'm out it

[Chorus]


ENC:  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2B50RUXbs-8